firstly,i'm sorry
second,i don't have intend to do that stupid thing
thirdly,i'll explain

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i have 2 email
i have 2 facebook
1.syuhada-is umum,for friends and someone i dont even know
2.seung woo-is my korean name,a friend give me that,used for second profile to know people better
                    and not connected to my friends

the idea comes up when i friends with u.i just try to trick(i know it is a bad thing)
then i realize that i should't do that,but things had go on
then i just go on,without intend to trick more
i wish i can stop but ...i can't
the bad things i said to anis about myself
is what i feel of myself
not because you do something to me
afnee is not in the culprit
so now,conclusion,i don't have intend to that and i beg ur apology.
it's up to you whether want to accept it or not.

i know,i realize,much of the problems happen caused of me
when things getting better,i start to make a big mess.
so,here,i'm very sorry of myself
and i hope i won't do it forever
i just wish i can have a normal life
just like other people

and i'm proud to have friends
like you all
and i'm embarrass of myself
i try to be better
but i know it getting worst

i wish i'm not in the the situation
that i can't handle
but i'm putting myself
right inside of it

just 1 thing u should know
true about myself
i believe my friends
more than i believe myself
more than thing i love
just like i believe my God
don't ever break it
and i won't trust anymore

all this time
i don't talk to you all
not because i hate you
or you do something wrong
because i think
it make you hate me
then leave me alone
i think that can make me better
but i was wrong
that make me worse
i cry alone then become crazy
and weary
i don't know how to end it
so i just let it go on

i know you feel bad too
its taking toll on everybody
what can i do
but nothing

i'm writing this with all my heart
and in 'keadaan waras'
mianhe